when will the day come?

alarhhhh
lolx

as i always said.
a lonely soul travelling around
to find stg to make her not lonely
wonder when she can find tat someone to make her not lonely
and a place where she belong to.





it seems like this world does not belong to her.
the world don't allow her too.
she had chosen the wrong path, the wrong world.
she just insisted to stay there and suffer more.
hahaha
but things weren't that bad afterall.
she still manage to stay tough like she always do?
haha
she used to it.
this was nothing.


like everyone said i mean "she" said
the world is always unfair
yea. mayb
i find it unfair to me n ofcoz everyone.
things doesnt change out wat u expected.
even if u treat tat person well
tat doesnt mean the person will treat u as well as u did.
yea..
she is true though.
the first time tat this tot came to my mind
the first time i accpet this fact.
thx anyway.
n i finally realise.


he told me to ignore them
she told me to ignore them
she told me to ignore them again
all r the words "ignore"
its not as easy to b done as the word
afterall
u had put all ur feelings,
ur effort,
the memories u gone with
for half year.
its not too long n not too short
but it is enough to hurt ur soul.
its cant b undone.
unless u erase my memories...
hahahha
unless u brong me baq to the future.


i regreted n realise again n again.
when i regretted i realli regret.
when things went normal i realise its not bad afterall
i regretted again.

mayb i was too naive to think it easy.
to think tat i can actually get along.
its not wat i tot afterall.
i shdn't promise her afterall.
i do not want to break the promise.
when she came to my class.
she wanted me to sit wif her.
n i know she want me to sit with her.

what was my decision?
i remain the same sitting there.
i dont know why.
i don't want to leave them.
its like something, i scare i will regret.

what now?
if i shift, will i regret?

haha no one knows either.

at first i was left at the right side.
after tat center.
i was so thkful to sit in the center.
i love it so.
coz i will not b left out sumhow?
haha but it seems its the same.
no differences.
i rela kena bully by u guys.
so tat i can b part of u guys?
i m always the unimportant one.
sadly.
oh well.
mayb its all fated afterall.
i shd accept it as a fact.














i swear this is the last post bout this.
sorry if i hurt any of u.
i didn't want to.